The First Day

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.  I feel clear for the first time in years.  It’s been 15-20 years of going to my numerous Doctors over that time and being sent from hospital to hospital, specialist to specialist and subjected to an endless and repetitive stream of blood tests, physical examinations,…

You Are Not to Blame

Surviving the loss of a loved one, who took their own life through suicide, has a number of complexities that the natural death of a loved one, may not necessarily have.  Some, or all, of the following responses are common: Shock Frustration Anger Disbelief Denial Helplessness Fixating on the imagined, or known, image of the…

Idols of the Manor

I fully expected that I would have to take off my boots.  As we did so, taking the lead from our friends, my Partner and I managed to cram our boots into the small racks that had been set up outside the entrance to the Manor.  I felt sure that I would not find my…